Sunday, August 10, 2014

July 19 2014

I've finally coming to post the beach was amazing!!! we were having a nice summer vacation  me and the boys went to Austin for the month of July so Zaki can see his dad anyways who cares because this has been the WORST year of my entire life as some of you know...
  ....i woke up Saturday July 19 like any other day boys fighting over  video games and wanting to go swimming lol but my dad had called me we had just spoken on Thursday which  was normal we try to talk every other day or at least on the weekends any who he called me and his whole voice sounded different the phone was very strange he kept saying i love y'all told me i was good mom and he loved the boys which he always said that but this time it was different he asked to talk to the boys he spoke to Zaki ,Nehemiah didn't wanna talk  on the phone , then we talked bout his work and how tired he was since hes been there since Friday night!!!! Then we said our i luvs you and good bye. I  called my mom right after and told her that i talk to dad and it was weird phone call something felt different. After lunch i took the kids swimming it was bout 230 3ish and the boys were in the big pool i was trying to get in but it didnt feel right so i got in hot tub it was too hot and i literally began to feel sick and my soul started to hurt i didnt know what was wrong all i knew was i hurt and didnt feel good i felt to vomit or cry i couldnt so i made the boys get out and go in shower my mom called me 50xs but i didnt answer cause i had to shower the boys then Amjid came in and his face and his feelings said something was wrong i kept saying whats wrong theres something wrong i can feel i can see it on you he sat his bed saying something about his uncle and sabreen was like chill out i was like no somethings wrong and so he took her outside and he can back in crying his face off i was like someone better tell me whats wrong now!!! Then she told me my dad had died -_- i was like which one my real dad or my step dad Tony cause hes having alot of heart issues and she said no YOUR DAD and i just lost it all there i called my mom to make sure it was true he died somewhere between 330 and 4 pm in a car wreck we guess he fell asleep and wreck.  i had to call my sister she didn't  know she was at her friends house 30 miles away from Kelly i should have waited but i couldn't i had to tell her she needed to know from her sister no one else. So the next day i drove home from Austin and i couldn't believe it i still cant believe it. 

My dad was catholic so we had rosary and his funeral the next day it was nice his body was viewable at the funeral home but i didn't wanna go see it i just want his nice memory's in my mind not his dead body. the kids are having a hard time with this we all are we dont wanna believe it but its true. Amy an Kelly made a checkered flag cross with a 7 on it and we put it at the crash site.

the following Saturday at  RT66 motor speedway an the help of one of dads close friends put together a balloon release 7 purple 14 white and yellow balloons and her son did a victory lap for dad with checkered flags it was cool.Then the go-kart track did a race and other things i was stuck in Austin and i missed it :( but Amy recorded it it was nice an then his work did a nice thing of  catfish and chicken dinner good food and the people who worked for dad told us nice story's  and funny story's about him. He will missed like no other but i know he resides in heaven and ill see him again that makes this life just a little easier.

 ill post what i said at the rosary in another post. i didn't make it threw all the way because i was so nervous but ill post everything i said and wanted to say.

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