sunday funday

it was a nice day today!! After church we drove around to 150 waffles house's to try to find one to eat at but they were sooo busy all of them we went to!!! so we just settled for taco bell those doritoes locos tacos are the bomb double high five to the person who thought of that lol. After lunch Zaki has a nap and miah stayed at home with mom while Owen and i came and cleaned his apartment really good it needed it lol so now its nice and clean and smells good!! After we spent a few hours doing that we went to the church picnic but not for very long becuz it started raining i think by the time we got back o my house it stopped oh well it was fine while we where there for a lil bit.
I got unemployment becuz i got fired from my job blah oh well at least i know ill be able to pay my bills thx God but i really need a job soon i hate not working and being busy im gunna go threw all my stuff this week i have boxs and boxs of junk in my room that im not sure what it is im such a packrat i hate it but i cant seem to get rid of stuff grr!! ill fix that this week.

 Church was good today!! i enjoyed the word then after church i always drive around back of the church to exit and some couple was coming reallllly fast they almost ran into and then they were flippingme off and screaming at me from there car lol they were going to church.. how nice of them.. i hope they got saved today or atleast repented 

its only 923 pm and i think im actually go to bed before 10 pm i pretty tired and its hard to wake up to get miah awake for school at 745 soo good nite friends...

All things new by Elevation Worship (Lyrics)

it has been

a crazy week i have been a day behind sorta. i thought Miah had school pics on friday and they were thursday. so i totally had a melt down and cried and freaked out over some stuff. becuz i dont have job there fore not enough money to pay my bills Thanks God for Owen being able to help me out.  I really hope i get a job soon ive put in 10thousand apps.

zaki got sick on friday so he couldnt go to school he was a bit mad becuz he loves school but its ok he cant go sick.

i need some sleep... (*_*)

The Proof Of Your Love: For King And Country

i feel like..

a little ball of emotions tide up and if i were to get poked i dont know if i would cry laugh or explode in anger...roar 
I HATE not having a job i hate staying home 24/7 i hate not being able to pay my bills.

im envious of people with good relationship i want a perfect one i know they dont exist but at least i want a realy good one!! I wish me and Owen communicated more and a few other things that are blah right now. I suppose i disappointed him again when i asked him who some people were on his phone his voice sounded disappointed when i asked him :| sorry Owen im the worst gf ever i hope i dont disappoint you to much. ack

blah i cant even think what to write to much and i just dont feel like finishing this blog tonite.... good nite 

This week..

is fair week...so i signed me and Owen  to work in the Radio by Grace booth for a few days. then today me and Thomas worked there from 1:30 till 5 it was long and boring but we got a few people signed up to win a free ipad. Afterwords we went over to a cookout with some peeps from church to talk bout the air show and what was good and bad all in all the airshow went well for a first time thing!! im glad i got to participate in that. 

I feel in freak out mode a little bit and i didnt stay to hang out with Owen cuz i didnt wanna drive him crazy about it becuz he calls me crazy when i do. i keep getting all these bad thoghts or things up in my head that i wanna ask him bout and hell probably be wtheck so i just left becuz he thought i was cranky so its best to come home then to hang out for a bit. I wish he would help me or try to understand my freak mode and then maybe i wouldn't be so freaky idk. it makes me crazy sometimes. maybe hes annoyed by me cuz i mean we have hung out almost every nite till late. so idk i just need some sleep and not to be woke up my nehemiahs alarm for school!!

It  really sucks not having a job its maken me nuts and i wanna cry!!

Erykah Badu feat.Stephen Marley-In Love with You

soo i've noticed..

..that almost every other blog is about a bad weekend i've had!!! ugh well i have another bad weekend blog lol and i have decided maybe i should just stay in bed during the weekend!! 

Ok so its not that bad of a weekend!! Rissa and the kids came over for dinner friday and then on saturday afternoon for lunch we just hung and talked girl stuff. exciting lol 

Dad had invited me and the boys and Owen over for dinner and some little finished with probation party but before that we stopped by Amys house so miah could see his half sisters for a min and so i got in the kitchen she starts screaming at me and saying what the eff r u doing here u need to effen leave and so do ur kids. like seriously... she doesnt always have to be  jerk and im tired of her rude all about amy attitude she can have herself for a while im not doing anything with her or for her until she apologizes for her jerkyness ididnt do anything to her and she didnt even give me a chance to say anything. and then at church today she tellsme to get over it umm no jerk she needs to realize shes not he queen of the world and she cant treat others rude all the time no matter if its family or not.

Soo mr smart pants Owen got my car stuck in the mud :| i was madd cuz he didnt listen to me on how to go and then bam were stuck i was mad but i got over it after a little bit i guess its ok since nothing got broken or tore up. Tony pulled us out of the mud.

Owens looking for a house so after church  i took him to this place that builds them for you and i think hes gunna think bout getting one there idk yet hes not sure i just think hes wasting money on renting places plus the fee for animals is crazyyy. so who knows what he wants to do. 

all in all sunday was an allright day!! Praise Jesus 

I know life..

...isnt perfect and nothing in it will ever be except Jesus. and I know my life isnt perfect right now even with the loss of my job which i am ok with...but everything else seems to be well!! But i find it hard to enjoy my time when God is blessing  when i know my friends life has fallen part and it doesn't seem to look like it will get any better!!! How do you  deal with this!? One of my friends whom ive know for 10++++ years i call  her my sister becuz thats how she is too me her husband just up and left her and the kids after 13 years!? Sure no marriage is perfect becuz we are human filthy rags to God but i still im at a loss for words at this they were suppose to be together forever ...and i have another friend who was engaged and now single and moving back home its like what went wrong!? Is not fixable? I just want these women happy not lost and hurt and out of love. Seeing things like this happen makes me sad and hard to close my eyes and get lost in love in a relationship.becuz i dont ever wanna end up in divorce broken hearted and lost alone out of love it pains me to even think bout it!!!!  This isnt the first time sth like this has happen in my life.. a few back i was ecstatic becuz after 8 years of the same car i baught anew one i was on cloud 9 everything was going good my job my family life no love life becuz i didnt want one i was happy. and then another friend... her life was falling apart and  i couldnt stomach her pain they were gunna lose their house her husband didnt wanna work or do anything she wanted to leave and i think on top of that she was having a miscarriage for the 7th time I couldn't speak anything that comforted her all i could was hug her and sure it didnt solve allthe problems she had but it helped her at that time and moment someone cared enough to listen to her and i still do i love my friends and i hate hate hate to see them go threw trails its hard to deal with. Im glad i and and those 3 friends serve the God of all comfort  Amen for Jesus!!

2 Corinthians 1:3-5 ³ Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, ⁴ who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.⁵ For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also abounds through Christ.

its been a while..

..so a few things have happen for good and bad i guess!! I quit my job the other day i just got tired of it and they are wrong for what they didnt do!! my cow-worker should have gotten in trouble for creating a hostile work environment and nothing happen expect oh Amber sorry but there's no evidence of anything you said.. really!! thats ok so i quit.

My sister and i took the kids to wonderland they had a fun time they dont stop talking about it and they cant wait till next year!! lol silly boys!! love em tho!

Then over the weekend we had an airshow it was really awesome Owen was in charge of security so i helped very little lol the boys are lots of fun. 

I just came back from the movies with Owen!! it was a stupid movie actually some funny stuff but really nasty junk of the world. We went to eat also we had a nice conversation. I really like him alot <3 he baught me some beautiful flowers the other day hes so sweet really. I thank God He put him in my life.

When Mercy Found Me - Rhett Walker Band | With Lyrics

Happy weekend!

It was a good weekend really i think so!! Hung out with Owen and the boys. I need to work on the boys more about discipline and get them out of acting like spoiled brats and thinking the can get whatever they want when ever they want. Mostly Nehemiah is the worst one about it i tell Zaki no and he seems to understand.

Owen and i and miah went shopping at the mall and other stores looking for OU and tech jerseys Owen found himself a nice one i didnt find any imma order off the soonersports.com or sth maybe even go to OK for aweekend before the game why not!! could be fuN!!

i need to find a job asap ack. me and amy are taking our kids to wonderland today they love that place..soo ill post pics from that later!!