since last friday..

not much has really happen. Just on Saturday at church we had some summer thing for the kids "under the big top with Jesus" or something i helped with registration it was easier then working with the 3 and 4 year olds i cant do that gets me crazzyyy a little bit but it still fun to hang out and help. didn't do much after that. Then i went to this hippy junk show different people selling there "junk" some was way to expensive  for the most part. but i  did buy a pretty little  set i got for 15$!! 

then i went to work and then had church Sunday morning then hung out at home like normal i guess i dont really remeber much lol. ah well. life goes on!!


on a different subject... I have decided that i know i cant control every little thing in my life and the more i try the more frustrated and worried i get and feel and the more i wanna freak out on everything. I cant do that i hate those feelings and i know it makes Owen crazy when im in mode freak out and i question him about everything so im letting it all go whatever happens happens so if our relationship is meant to be then it will work out if not then i pray God take him out of my life. I cant keep being frantic  its not worth it. but also i want relationship with him only not his ex's not my ex's i don't talk to any of  my ex's just Zakariah's dad becuz i have to i have his kid that's all we don't talk about my life becuz my life is not his business no more and i don't ask bout his becuz its not my business.Owen is a really nice guy to and has a big heart and will help anyone and i love that about him but there's other things that make me unsure about him and i know he thinks the same about me lol he always tells me im weird haha and i know i am way different then him and anyways idk..


..except i do know...


.. this life this world this countries are about to change.. all for the Glory of God there's so much Bible prophecy happening right now its amazing. God is great! Jesus is Lord and the Holy Spirit is amazing!! Lord dont let me forget that YOU are all i need in this life God and let Ur Holy Spirit teach me from Ur word and shake me when i put useless things before You  God. Amen.