Friday, May 18, 2012

5 years and growing *tear*

Soo last post i forgot to mention my sister also gave me a mothers day gift!! some scentsy and bracelet and bath room stuff soo nice of her since i didnt get her anything ill take her lunch or sth when i get paid she likes to eat food lol love ya sis thanks alot!! 

When i was 17 i was a bit wild i was dating the guy who i thought i was gunna marry becuz i loved him alotttt. I also hated kids i never wanted any at all EVER. so one nite i had a dream bout a blonde hair blue eyed kid named Nehemiah I told my mom i had a nightmare bout having a kid ugh lol.When i turned 18 Jesus saved me or at least i thought so. i was going to a church i loved and i loved the people also it was small pentecostal church i learned so much from them.  Well 5 years later me and the love of my life broke up i was heart broken and depressed so i started dating this loser to try to fill his place Lord knows that didn't work out we fought and beat each other up regularly well i was 21 turning 22 and i found out i was pregnant i was devastated i wanted to die i was ashamed of myself i hated everything and everyone.I told my mom its a boy and his name has to be Nehemiah i dreamed bout this!!  So after a tough pregnancy and almost the death of  both of me and Nehemiah i had him May 18 2007!! I had to forgive myself and i got alot of healing from the Ultimate healer Jesus!! i began to accept what was and what happen and i have this great love for this little child. God bless  him and i pray he lives his life for the Glory of God!! Happy Birthday to my baby i love you so much!! You mean the world to me!!

After i had Nehemiah my preacher from the Pentecostal church gave me a piece of paper with Nehemiah'sנְחֶמְיָה)   ) name on it and said "comforted by God". I didn't have a clue Nehemiah was a book in the old testament.He's the rebuilder of broken walls and life's an example of Jesus!! Glory to God!!   Also i have forgiven Nehemiahs dad for everything bad hes done to me and i don't hate him. Hes just another lost soul looking to fill a hole in his life that only God can do. 




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