summer daze

already Nehemiahs finished with pre-k i cant believe he cant believe it lol he keeps asking mom when are you taking me to school were already a day late LOL..he doesnt understand the summer break concept he will and soon he will learn to love it for sure. 

Mom Tony Owen and I went to go see a movie battleship...it was interesting if you like aliens and what no it was nice to just hang out with them also. 

Owen loves my car just as much as me if not more LOL which is cool :) Im  sure hell help me maintain it and keep it nice :) hes super and he has a good heart!! 

Ive had 3 days off from work it was nice i went back yesterday and im bout to go back ugh but its ok i gotta a car to pay for plus other bills i think about August ill have everything caught up and then im gunna start working on my credit and paying off all debit which i think all it equals up to is $1700.00 not to bad really. I wanna be debit free and just have a car payment to worry bout and nothing else. No more credit cards!! lol but its all good. 

Nothing to exciting this weekend which is cool. im tired tho. next friday dad said hed watch the boys so Owen and i can go eat and hang out for a little bit :) should be fun if sth doesn't  come up with Owens job or anything really guess well see next friday.

time for work.. >.<

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Some where in dream land..

...you will find me! oh yes...it started last friday...i drove by the car lot where i got my galant from and there sat my dream car a Pontiac G8 ..,when they came out in 2009 i fell in love with them for one becuz i love Pontiac and 2 its a beautiful car that goes fast lol,... so i called car lot to see how much it was he said $21,000.00 i said hmm ok i want that car.. so i come home and look on there website the website says its $19,950.00. i told my mom im getting this car lol we went to the car wash to clean my galant out and up becuz it was mess  and she had a date with the dealership anyways. So saturday morning  the day of Nehemiah s birthday party i went to the car lot at 10:30 am about 3 and half hours later i was driving away in my dream car amazing!! ONLY thanks to God i got this!! i still cant believe i have this I will not ever have to buy a new car again until this one dies i love this car!! lalala 

 
Nehemiah had a super fun time at his birthday party alot of people showed up i didnt except to lol so it was fun for him not enough pizza tho lol oh well. he got alot of gifts clothes books shoes a little swiming pool soccer stuff. They had fun bowling! His little friend Genevieve ( i hope i spelled that right) she beat all of the kids playing she cute and so is her sister Mackenzie! Nehemiah s half sisters came he loves them he looks just like Katrina its crazy. Zaki got to have some fun with birthday cupcakes also! 

Tomorrow is Nehemiah's last day of school he had a program on tuesday it was so cute they were sitting in a circle Zaki kept trying to sit with them but he couldnt so he grabbed like 5 cookies good thing he didnt eat them lol i think he only got in 1. I cant believe how fast time goes!! thats the life i guess.

Twana has left also im happy for him he gets to go home to his family i will miss him but well still talk in facebook even it will be hard becuz of time differnce i think but its ok he will always be a dear friend. I pray God blesses his work and him and his family.

ok only a few more things lol and no more pics Owens poor lil dog pirate has died :( he loved her more then anyone i know has ever love an animal. so sad she will be missed the boys liked her alot to. Owens taken it pretty hard but i guess its normal if you loved a pet a lot. Hes going threw a hard time right now lifes not easy it never will be until were singing GLORY TO THE KING!!

Lord i pray you will fill Owens heart with your peace and love Jesus and help him deal with his problems thank You Jesus for everything you give us that we take for granted God

5 years and growing *tear*

Soo last post i forgot to mention my sister also gave me a mothers day gift!! some scentsy and bracelet and bath room stuff soo nice of her since i didnt get her anything ill take her lunch or sth when i get paid she likes to eat food lol love ya sis thanks alot!! 

When i was 17 i was a bit wild i was dating the guy who i thought i was gunna marry becuz i loved him alotttt. I also hated kids i never wanted any at all EVER. so one nite i had a dream bout a blonde hair blue eyed kid named Nehemiah I told my mom i had a nightmare bout having a kid ugh lol.When i turned 18 Jesus saved me or at least i thought so. i was going to a church i loved and i loved the people also it was small pentecostal church i learned so much from them.  Well 5 years later me and the love of my life broke up i was heart broken and depressed so i started dating this loser to try to fill his place Lord knows that didn't work out we fought and beat each other up regularly well i was 21 turning 22 and i found out i was pregnant i was devastated i wanted to die i was ashamed of myself i hated everything and everyone.I told my mom its a boy and his name has to be Nehemiah i dreamed bout this!!  So after a tough pregnancy and almost the death of  both of me and Nehemiah i had him May 18 2007!! I had to forgive myself and i got alot of healing from the Ultimate healer Jesus!! i began to accept what was and what happen and i have this great love for this little child. God bless  him and i pray he lives his life for the Glory of God!! Happy Birthday to my baby i love you so much!! You mean the world to me!!

After i had Nehemiah my preacher from the Pentecostal church gave me a piece of paper with Nehemiah'sנְחֶמְיָה)   ) name on it and said "comforted by God". I didn't have a clue Nehemiah was a book in the old testament.He's the rebuilder of broken walls and life's an example of Jesus!! Glory to God!!   Also i have forgiven Nehemiahs dad for everything bad hes done to me and i don't hate him. Hes just another lost soul looking to fill a hole in his life that only God can do. 

Happy Mothers day!!

I cant believe i've been a mom for 4 and one week it will be 5  years lol !!! i have the cutest two lil boys ever!! i love them so much God has blessed me so much. Nehemiah and Zakariah. even they are crazy at times but they come by it honest im a bit crazy too hahaha i had an awesome mothers day too. we went to church and to lunch and then a much needed nap and spent time with the boys. Then Owen and i went to get some froyo its pretty allright i like the lil Japanese liquid balls that pop in your mouth haha awesome.

p.s i have the best mother in the whole wide world!! i thank God for choosing her to be my mommy i love you mom!!

Thank You Jesus for an amazing day.

...off to work now...

Jaoon Kahan ( With Lyrics & Eng Translation )

.hard to speak when theres alot to say...

I only one time before racked my brain for a guy that i loved. and i promised to never do it again becuz its STUPID! well here recently i have found my self going completely in mode :::freak out::: and i dont mean to it just sorta happens and i try to ignore it but it gets the best of me and i just have to a freak out moment for a few mins or hour(s) or until im satisfied in knowing the truth of  what i thought up some crazy story in my head. i feel like a crazy. Worrying a sin and i have done to much worrying so ive done to much sinning. Forgive me Lord.  i've been screwed over to many times by guys ill be the first to run away before anything happens.Its hard to read Owen sometimes i really dont know his thoughts and we haven't spoken much really and i... have nothing to say bout it just so be it. ill handle watever comes my way i guess.

At Bible study we have a new girl! She also has learned Biblical Hebrew soo that means i have a study buddy an someone to read with soo awesome!!!

im only off tonite from work until next week. kinda sucks but its ok i need to get caught up on my bills..grr 

i cant think ... -_-

...unsure of what the balance holds...

I sorta had a bad weekend :\ i woke up Saturday morning on the wrong of the bed  i was cheerful but i just felt like poo and it made me less cheerful.  then i needed to go to the store for mom so i got out side and trip on my stupid pajama pants fall down the stairs and in the process shattered  the screen on my new phone :\ 3 phones that i have broken the screen on this year grr sucks! wasted money for sure.so i do wat i do best these days was cry lol my mom was like ur such a big baby lol i am a spoiled one at that thanks to her for sure :D 

then i really didnt do anything the rest of the day except hang out with the kids and chillax then went to work at 10 blah blah time. 

I was late sunday morning to church grr missed half of worship time i hate thattt  after church spent a lil time with the kids and mom and a few minutes with Owen before i went to work. I love my friends at work they are some awesome chicks. <3 id do anything for them.

Today is totally lazy day i liked it :D i did my Hebrew homework and study up a bit im so clueless in that class sometimes becuz i dont study the vocabulary but i love it anyways!! Also has Nehemiahs school meeting they say hes doing really well just needs to expand his vocabulary also LOL. but now its time for me to get ready for work yeehaw! 

Lord Jesus create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit to me dont cast me away from your presence and dont take your Holy spirit from me. 

Laila Tov

..oh the life..

It is a good rule never to look into the face of a man in the morning till you have looked into the face of God.
~Charles Spurgeon~


We are not gunna do tee ball Nehemiah doesn't seem to interested in it. and plus we needed to pay a few days again and we didn't oh well. were gunna do soccer instead. I like soccer better anyways and im sure he will too!! Maybe next year God willing well try tee ball again. 

Im taking some extra hours at work to get my bills caught up and paid off. i hate getting behind. ugh i really hate money! i have the tendency to buy un-needed and really unwanted junk!! if i never had money i wouldn't.

Owen and i had a great much needed talk to nite. Im glad were on the same page for most part and he told me everything i wanted to say . hes awesome person really. im glad he likes working for my dad lol my dad can be crazy some times but who isnt crazy sometimes? i know i am hehehe

I have made tomorrow throw away all the toys on the floor day my kids have to much soo why not throw them away lol so since ill be doing that i should sleep like now!! ~happy dreaming~

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Nehemiah had his first tee ball practice yesterday!! lol hes a bit crazy i have one of those weird kids lol!! He would catch the ball and then roll around on the ground then get up and dust himself off for 5 mins lol then he wouldnt pay attention at all he just wanted to wrestle around with the other kids...he is only 4 soo that has alot to do with it. I think hell like it when i get him a ball and the right kind of glove haha i bought the wrong one ive never bought anything for tee ball or baseball as i am not interested in it but for my kid  ill have to change my mind bout it lol.

well we got our pool put then.. a stupid mini hurricane came and broke it!! grr we gotta get some poles to fix it. I hate wind and hail and bad storms!! 

i keep saying oh im looking for a new job but i really havent done much looking except for in the news paper hahaha. and i was actually thinking its boutta be summer nemo gets out of school and if i get a day job im gunna have to find and pay for a babysitter and so im just gunna keep this job for the summer then when fall comes ill get a different one nemo will be full time kindergarten and im gunna see bout putting zaki in the pre-k downtown.