almost not ... i love this definition because its how the last month has been for me. a mess.
my heart hurts to night like a bad pain that my hardest sobs and gasps for air cant even compare to. the pain is screaming i miss my dad i need him right now i need his best dad hug i need his stern "listen kid im gonna kick your butt if you dont stop...(insert the newest mess i've gotten myself into for the week)
i feel a million miles away from God...its ugly out here to much pain to bear really.. my friend say me "fake it till you make it" soo im taking that advice im pounding my head with all the verses that i know by memory listen to every song that praises God....i opened my bible on sunday at church its the first time in a while...i think the words were dancing with joy on the page at least my heart felt "at home"
so friends please keep me in your prayers because im almost not praying at all.
thanks
