yup...

I did something i might have regret doing something today but maybe not..

..some men wonder why most of women have trust issue's but yet the dont stop to think Oh were the reasons they dont trust us or any other male who comes in there life.. my first love cheated on me i cheated him back then the next bf i cheated on him and like wise then i did the big drama mess of cheating with a married person and he being married didn't care at all and blah blah....

...so i went to Owens house and i told him the truth...bout my nosiness getting the best of me and i snooped through his cell phone messages... i felt like a jack@$$ but i did it i read them and i told on myself and i even asked him a million questions and i  told him a million things he probably didn't wanna hear... but in the end we worked everything out and im happy about it!!

Nehemiah strangely has strep throat ... in the middle of the summer soo crazy :| 

i need to sleep now i cant keep my eyes open

לילה טוב (Layla tov ...good nite)

..pretty much..

i suppose all my entry's are the same complaining bout my work and whatever else. well my life revolves around these things obviously work church kids family my bible seems to be the only things i talk bout its becuz they are important lol but today im shifting gears...

...becuz things are starting to get serious with Owen...in a way i think its awesome and another way im really freaking out! After all the mess i've been threw in the lfe i need to l  to need to slepe now!!  kineed sleepppp

crappo weekend man...

...the washer broke... the ac broke... its so hot... there's clothes every where!! sucks!! man work was nice last week no drama everything was good but today i feel it allready starting back to drama gahh hurry up summer i wanna get a differnt hour job while my kids go to school... 

im at a lose for words now i really dont know bout something its making me crazy right now i must go think bout it..

..what a long...

week..sorta bad one too. My job idk what the heck is going on there anymore...i don't even feel close to my 2 good friends there :( the other girl is such a liar its not even funny... and my supervisor believes every little word she says may it be truth or a lie and she doesn't even come to the group to check stuff out she believes  whatever the other girl says. So on my evaluation i got a 1 for unsatisfactory  and all the comments box said " to many complaints from coworkers.." i call BS!! my super visor is suppose to be judging me not the others. I know i know i do slack on my job but so does every one else which is crappy of my supervisor to not think that..anyways i didn't get the job at the prison which is ok i didnt wanna work there anyways.

i felt like total crappy on Wednesday i had a headache a toothache just felt blah. So i went to church anyways and after getting some of The Word in my soul i felt amazing sure my body wanted me to still feel bad i just couldn't becuz my inside was rocken with Jesus!! Praisealujah!! 

thursday is my only day off this week ack! but i have a new car to pay for now ggrr oh well i need sleep now ^_^

..in the blink of an..

eye...yes i say it a lot but its the truth time fly's!! and what a crazy week, the boys had dental appointments went well Nehemiah has to go back on tuesday for to get some crowns and whatnot...i think these dentist just wanna make Medicaid pay or watever becuz hes 5 years old these teeth are gunna fall out  in a few years so all this work they have done is just wasted money. oh well Also on thursday at called out i had to give my testmoney i wish i would have actually thought threw when Russ asked me to do it lol i just figured hey its my life no big i can get it out..but i felt i left a few major details but its ok ill get some other chances some other times im sure. I just hung out today with the kids and did laundry. nothing to exciting.

They other day i also had a job interview it was dumb:/ lol then i had a meeting with my supervisor and i work the NIGHT shift... theres someone who works on the day shift complaining that i lock the doors at night LOL really... the day shift.. why do u care what i do at nite?... get a life and do ur job and stop worrying bout how i do mine ( i had posted this on facebook) then today my supervisor calls me and says well multiple people have seen ur facebook status its not nice to talk bout ur job its not allowed well have to fire you for it.. soo i know who told on me..same girl who crys about every lil thing i do or dont do. and shes not even on my facebook friends shes like like total creepo stalking my facebook.  oh well i dont even haev much people from my work on there becuz of drama like this oh well life goes on... im looking for a job God willing ill get a better one. 

I gotta sleep now cant stay awake...

Sh´ma Yisrael / Baruch Haba

weekend time..

was a nice one!! Friday i just hung out with the kids and whatnot. On Saturday morning i was awake by 7am lol only becuz i had to be at this breakfast in the garden at 845 am. i picked up Amy and we went to walmart to get coffee cups cotton candy muffins lol which were delish!! Then we went to go this lady house whose backyard was awesome set up like a garden zen thing with tables everywhere. I thought it would be fun to set up my own table so i did lol it wasn't much compared to everyone else's lol i didn't go before so i didn't know but it was fun anyways.there was an million different kinds of food to eat so fun.There's a pic of Amy and our table set up thingy lol it took me to days to do that center piece im keeping! ill probably  use it again i love it :D

Then Saturday night i went to a church home group thingy with Owen and mom and Tony it was cool we ate and sat around learning from the word Ephesians 1 more or less trusting in the Lord and Who i am in the Lord. Im blessed by the Lord for sure then we left cuz i had to get the kids from grandmas get em in bed and i had to be at work at 10..but i called in..opps hehe, Owen and I plus big John went to Orange leaf some froyo place i just like there Japanese liquid ball things lol. Then Sunday was church!! we have an awesome church!! i want everyone to come to it lol then pretty much came home took a nap and ate dinner talked to the kids then went to work blah blah lol  fun times tho.

Now i have like at least 3 basket full of clothes just to put away of just the boys :\ they thinks fun to change clothes every hour!! not cool gotta change that habit of there they either run around naked in there undies or are changing clothes i think wed better get to half naked undies kids lol better then 10 piles of clothes by the end of the day. 

life happens.

...and it pass's by us like we ,well i , wouldn't believe. my mom showed me this obituary  from the paper of this lady who died whom ive know for years! Her daughter and i were best friends in elementary school then after that we stop talking becuz you know group friend changes everything changes in middle school. So my mom was like were going to this  funeral and im like no no i dont like them ive only been to like 3 out of my 27 years of life. Well after going to the park with Ashley and the boys mom called and was like hello im here come now soo i reluctantly went. It was so sad really,lots of people, and i even seen some of the kids i went to school with but never spoken to then i seen an old friend whom i knew well back then but not so much now. So after it was over the family went out so we could sorry or watever  you think might comfort someone and never really does. I seen my old friend i gave her a hug and said so sorry i could feel her sadness and i have never been hugged so tight by her before lol freaky sounding i know but it was so sad i didnt feel sad until i hugged her i almost lost it i told her id pray for her becuz wat else can i say? i dont know the experience thanks God my mom is still her id be a nut case with out her. Then i got to her dad, whom i just seen a few months at the store  i  loved her parents they were great people  and i would definetly  call them if i ever needed anything i was close to them, it was so sad to see him but before the funeral ended the preacher guy was like we must pray for Joel her husband becuz after the funeral after the people go away hes gunna be alone his mate is gone :\ sad really but so true, when i seen his tears i thought of that hes gunna be alone how do u deal? I pray for his soul i pray Jesus comforts him to the point of not missing her being there. I pray for my old friend and her brother Jesus that they find comfort in You.

...Sadly i wanted to punch Owen in the gut!!! I let him drive the G8 and we were at taco bell and he didnt pull out far enough and BAMMM drove right onto the freaking curb :\  i was a little upset but he felt really bad lol he kept saying sorry i just ignored him LOL sorry dear hehe :P but its ok i know if he messed up he would fix at least he better or ill chop off his arm or tell my daddy  hahaha :P anyways  i gotta call some people for him soo write more later.

~eggs~

I love eggs  from my head down to my legs! lol  i seriously could eat them for breakfast everyday :) so nice. haha weirdo

thank GOD i have finally made a dentist appointment on Thursday i hate dentist but its the only person who can help me with a tooth problem i suppose.

So God is awesome for many reasons like what happen recently... Art wanted to watch Ra. One the most  stupid stupid stupid Bollywood movie EVERRRRR i give it 10 thumbs down lol well after we , we being Art Ashley and I, after it was over were like ugh boo lol. So later on i was talking to another indian friend about b-wood movies and hes like there soo bad and demonic and blah blah blah and i was thinking on it and God said yea time to say bye bye to them so i said ok good idea God im just not into them, Soo on thursday at Called out i told Ashley ..friend... i dont like bollywood no more lol i dont wanna watch them hehe. her face got so happy and she was like me tooo and how awesome God also convicted her and she told me she was talking to her other friend about how to tell me she dont wanna watch them lol thank You Jesus!! Your awesome!! <3

Well i apply for a new job yesterday at the prison where my mom works i really hope i get it its more money then i make now plus its a normal person hours mon-fri 8-5 so nice :) :::praying for it::

still no hebrew class :( i miss it!! ive been studying tho i really wanna be fluent on it!! i wanna read it with out problems and no long pauses in the middle of the words!!!

Thank You Jesus for this day!!

its one of those days

I didnt sleep well at all last night. i had  killer tooth pain and it was hot and ugh so that has led me into a very cranky. Plus ive been working alot only one day off this week. boo oh well my choice. blah write later g2g to work .

...so back from work. Time went fast it was only 5 hour shift so no big deal.but those stupid people!! trying to steal my hours im basically not getting paid for working 8 hours :\ yea imma go to HR on monday and ask bout that not cool!!  

I have learned so far threw out my journey of this life.. i am a single mom with really no help from anyone except my mom and i have accepted being a single mom it was hard for me at first very hard but now that i have accepted it i cant forget it. Sure sometimes i wanna run away crying but i would come running back faster then i left. i love my kids. ive noticed its hard for some people to accept that im a single mom or that i have kids. which it seems normal but still hard to believe. I know i still get a shock when i hear of someone being a single mom. Anyways lifes hard God never said it would be easy!! 

..on another note a very frustrating one... i have many muslim friends and many anti islam friends. so i getta lotta i hate islam stuff on my facebook and sure it makes my islamic friends upset which is understandable. So one friend said they were christian for 30 + years and not once ever thought Jesus was God so it was easier for her to switch to islam becuz oh they dont believe Jesus is God either.  (idk wat kinda Christianity she was plugged into but its wrong!!) Crazy days ahead of us for sure!! So now my friend has said anyone who puts anything bout hate of islam will not be friend lol soo i was tempted to text her goodbye have a nice life but seriously she just needs to get over herself. shes lived in the USA all her life!! WE by the Grace of God still have freedom of religion and freedom to speak our mind no matter what other people think its our God giving right but its also her right to not hear it or see it lol so i guess our friendship will be ending soon i cant please everyone i dont want too i dont need too or have too. blah blah i dont care anymore anyways. 

..sleep i need it >.< goodnite world!