I finally got a house!! It's cute 4 bedroom 2 bathroom its two story i like it!! however for the future reference i don't want a two story house all flat is fine wit me!!
I met this guy his name is Patrick!! I like him hes seems really cool!! Although hes younger then me lol 26 to be exact we seem to get along well! I went to his city this past weekend we went to this beach and walked on the pier had some good mexican food hung out a little bit with his grandma a nice little old lady. He has really nice family! i hope everything works out for the best!
I still miss my dad with every breathe i take and it seems easier to deal with when i dont think about him but when i do the melt down happens and streams of tears pour out of my eyes. Happens at least once a week. At the church here they have a grief class ill probably go to it and see how it is. I was talking to the Pastor this morning i was like i feel mad i felt mad i was mad at God i was mad at everything and everyone and i wanted to blame my dads wife blame his job blame blame blame but i know its none of there faults and when i try to reason what happen it dont make sense and i feel mad all over again and asking God why why I already know why my dads work was done here God wanted him! i praise God that my dad knew Him had a relationship as well.
I for the past few months have been clinging on to this verse :
yea its been the only thing that makes some sense to me!! but yea im out this till a later day!
